Tuesday, January 17, 2012

cheating. tell or not?

hangin out with spencer... listening to the radio... on the way to school... just hangin out. we were listening to an actor... she was in a few movies, horror movies. she was telling us about what her life was like when she watched the movies she was in. but i understand that, i mean, who would be able to watch themselves be chased by a guy with a chainsaw without freaking out. her name is kyle richards. she wrote a book, and in that book she said something about cheating. it turns out that her friend had cheated on her husband, but it was the first and only offence. kyle had told her friend that as long as she didnt do it again, there would be no reason to tell her husband. i agree, as long as you know it was a mistake and have promised yourself and your spouse that it will never happen again i really dont think it would matter if you tell them or not. however, this is not a '1 free pass'! do not think that because i agree with this that i would ever think about cheating on someone i love. but thats what spencer thinks and i worry... not because i think i might cheat but because if i did something like that and told him... i dont think he would feel the same about me. in fact i would think that he would break up with me and forget about me if i did something like that. but does that mean that he doesnt love me enough to give me a second chance? this is why i do believe in the whole, 'did it once but wont do it again so i wont tell' thing, because if you truly believe that you wont do t again... why put yourself and him through that? but its also not fair to cheat... its called cheating for a reason... and it makes me want to cry that i only have one chance, again, not because i migh cheat, but because it seems like he doesnt love me enough to show me that im worth more to him then a kiss on the lips.

and no, i did not cheat, will not cheat, and could never cheat in my lifetime or anybody elses.

1 comment:

  1. My mom used to tell me, "You lose them like you get them". I've never forgotten that.

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