i was just in my study lab and i got everything done... was board, so i started reading... but it wasnt my kindle. it was my aunts blog... she always seems to inspire me. her whole family does. i love reading about my cousins... i love reading her "Mother-Ofthe-Year" awards... my favorites are when gage saw his dad across the room an gave him the rock-on sign then proceeded to 'machine-gun' the audience; and my other is when ryan came down the hall towards Aunt Lisa with a bottle of wine from his lunch... but my favorite... i cant even put into my own words... Aunt Lisa put them just so... and its just so... wonderful that when i was reading it for the third or fourth time this month i wanted to cry... just so beautiful;
"Um, Papa Stevo?" (that's what Ryan calls my dad)
"Yes, Ryan" (and by "yes, Ryan" we all cringe a bit because it's the precursor to a tough question- one we all know he's thought a LOT about so we sort of wait in eerie anticipation)
"Why He doesn't talk to me?"
"Who? Who doesn't talk to you?"
"God. I try to talk to Him and tell him to come down from heaven so I can see Him and He doesn't talk back to me".
"Well...if you want to see God, you just have to look around...like right there (pointing to the rising sun)...see that sunrise? THAT'S God. He's right there."
Olivia is Ryan's older sister... she lived minutes on this planet, but God saw something better for her somewhere else... wherever that may be. every time i read this... i feel those tears, Olivia's younger brothers care enough about her... that they think of her often and considering this conversation... she's in their hearts and minds when they think about Him.
"Scenario One: "I try to talk to Him, but He doesn't talk back to me"
(this particular conversation between Ryan and my dad took place on an early morning hunt)"Um, Papa Stevo?" (that's what Ryan calls my dad)
"Yes, Ryan" (and by "yes, Ryan" we all cringe a bit because it's the precursor to a tough question- one we all know he's thought a LOT about so we sort of wait in eerie anticipation)
"Why He doesn't talk to me?"
"Who? Who doesn't talk to you?"
"God. I try to talk to Him and tell him to come down from heaven so I can see Him and He doesn't talk back to me".
"Well...if you want to see God, you just have to look around...like right there (pointing to the rising sun)...see that sunrise? THAT'S God. He's right there."
And so Ryan, taking in what my dad has said to him says in an amazed whisper...
"You can see Him, Papa?"
"Absolutely. And you can see Him too."
Um, Papa?"
"Yes, Ryan"
"Is Olivia standing next to him?""Olivia is Ryan's older sister... she lived minutes on this planet, but God saw something better for her somewhere else... wherever that may be. every time i read this... i feel those tears, Olivia's younger brothers care enough about her... that they think of her often and considering this conversation... she's in their hearts and minds when they think about Him.
"Scenario Two: "Where does He live?"
"Um, Papa..."
"Yes, Ryan"
"Why God never comes to see me?"
"He can see you all the time"
"Yeah, but why He doesn't come here to live? Why He just lives in heaven and stays there all the time?"
"Well, actually...God lives right there" (my dad taps Ryan on his chest) "He lives right there in your heart".
"Oh...in my heart. Oh yeah, I freegot""
and now do you see why it speaks to my heart?
I {love} that you love a cousin you've never met and that you let the unseen, touch your heart. You are so precious, Sarah.
ReplyDeleteThe way you love, the way you think, the way you consider the thoughts and feelings of others - these things (among many others) make you such a gorgeous young lady.
I'm excited to tag along as God moves you through your gift of writing. Shine on sweet niece of mine. Love you!