puppy tears

my aunt lisa just got a new puppy. his name is copper... or cooper if they decide otherwise... but anyway! im allergic to cats... but i love them... but every time i want to cuddle them, my throat tightens and i sneeze (a lot). out of my wits that my aunt lisa just got a ited out of my wits that my aunt lisa just got a excited out of my wits that my aunt lisa just got a puppy, i spend most of my time nuzzling and cuddling this cute little fur ball. though i wont have him for much longer, because i will be going back to idaho... back to school >:O. so ive come to the conslution that i will BEG my dad for a puppy... and let him train it ;)

my ex boyfriend, jesse, has been on my mind for the past couple of weeks... ever since he said he was going to change. by changing he would;
1) turn himself into the police for all of those times he was at parties and outran them.
2) go back to highschool then eventually to college
3) be 100% true to his girlfriend and tell (not ask!) her dad that hes gonna marry his daughter. this last one had me on edge. even though i dont believe him, he still said it. and some STUPID part of me thought that he might actually try something like that. my dad hates jesse with a passion. im not aloud to talk to him anymore. but jesse always finds a way around parents. we have known each other for about 2 years now and every time he says

i love you

it kinda sticks. and i end up dreaming about the @$$hole every night. my clossest friends say i should just forget about him, but when he was my first kiss... its kinda hard.